I feel like lately I’ve been really really down. I think it might be my hormones talking, but STILL. I’ve been feeling really crummy about myself and have been really antisocial and quiet about it. I haven’t gone to Church in a couple of weeks. I went to small group for the first time in a couple of weeks, and I still felt like in that setting, I was still ALONE. It was weird. I’ve just been feeling really distant with people.

I found out my love language is spending quality time with people. It’s really hard to spend quality time with people when I’m not wanting to be around people. I’ve been really hard on myself lately. I’m getting fat, I’m slacking a little in school, I’ve kind of lost contact with people I shouldn’t have, and I’ve just been self-loathing a lot. 

This seems really unhealthy of me :l There’s just been a lack of love lately. God is love, so i’m lacking God lately, which I’m very proud of. I’ve been feeling so broken down and I really need to collect all the scattered pieces and build myself up again.

Without Facebook, it’ll be easier. I think. Reconnection with God and people in general will help and just getting my shit together.

I feel like the main reason this all started was drama and my last post about how things are just falling apart. 

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